fragile hope..

It is almost night here. What about there?

The temperature here is kind of cold. What about there?

Everything here has changed. I have become sensible.

I have begun writing diary entries again. What about you?

It is almost dawn here. What about there?

It is really hot here. What about there?

Everything here has changed. I have stopped crying.

I have kept the photos. What about you?

If

we were still together, what would it be like?

Will we still be deeply in love with each other?

Like when it started,

Holding hands even if it is almost dawn.

What would it be like if we were still together?

Would we still be hiding things from each other?

Like when it ended,

Although you knew you did no wrong,

you asked for me to forgive.

I wont forgive.

How do i forgive?

Their fate

What do you think about this cute baby?

From the newspapers lately, we noticed that baby dumping had become a hot issue in Malaysia. Nowadays when we read the newspaper, we can see many innocent babies had been dumped and buried alive and not surprising that the numbers are escalating. I feel very pity for those new born baby and angry at the same time as many women wish to pregnant and have a baby but actually they are not capable. They wish to have their own children badly.


Obviously we can know that those who dump babies do so because of desperation and normally young girls. They scare to be discriminated by others and scold by their parents after the incident is revealed, so they decided to dump the baby. This is actually what the government feels sad and worry about. Due to the baby dumping's problem are escalating, government had set up a ‘school of hope' for those unmarried pregnant teenagers. As we know, government setting up this school is to curb cases of illicit sex among baby dumping among the teenagers.


I personally do not agree with this policy. This is because this policy gave those teenagers have a wrong insight as they might thought once they get pregnant, they can straight away go to the 'school of hope' and give birth instead of get married and be responsible in their behaviour. So, setting up school of hope just like encouraging teenager to have sex with their partner without care or worry about the consequence. This might cause promiscuity among the teenager.


Recently I had read an article about a girl have sex with three guys at the roof of an apartment. What a ridiculous behaviour? And the girl died from falling down from the roof when she escapes once the police appeared. What I want to mention is the girl was only 12 years old, if I’m not mistaken. This is still considering as under age. Her life was ruined by the word of SEX at the same time implicated a baby life.


Have they ever thought of having sex in the young age often ruin their chance of having a good career and a bright future? There is a research and discovered that most of the western country's teenager had lost their virginity among aged 14 to 18. They consider themselves as an adult. This is totally different view from our Asian country. We consider it as destruction of the culture and civilisation. Despite I'm a quite open-minded person, but I totally disagree with their -western concept and thinking.


As we noticed, prevention is better than cure. At these critical and harsh phenomena, government, parents, education figures and public should start to look at this issue seriously. Especially parents, they should spend more time with their children and keep an eye on them. Talk and communicate with them sporadically. During their teenage years, what they need is care and guidance.


Parents should talk with them patiently and it will gradually build up the relationship between one another. As a result, parents have a big role in making sure that their kids don't become a social and school dropouts. It's a fact that behind every champion and good kids are very supportive parents. Good parents will produce a good product. Love your parents, love your child, love your baby, love the earth and love everything that should be loved.


Simply say that, no one can help us but ourselves. I think many of you will agree with this statement. No big deal, just want to express my feeling that had buried in my heart for such a long time. Last but not least, " Before someone's tomorrow has been taken away, cherish those you love, appreciate them today.''

Say no to SEX before married. It will ruin your life and........

CUTE BABY

Dream, Realize and Wake Up

It’s time to get back into my hectic life after Hari Raya Holiday. I’m back to my college. I am pretty sure everyone felt very lazy after 2 weeks of holiday, but in my case just one week. I got no problem with that as long as there is a holiday for me so that I can recharge my battery for further usage.

First of all, I would like to share my happiness with all of you, especially my family. I’m very satisfied and happy with my Test 2 marks as I almost get the highest marks in all the subjects. These results came not because of praying hard before the exam yet I do really put a lot of effort in it.

Even the non-important subject, Study Skill, I can score the highest mark on it which is 78.5/80. I used to study at night. Within 8 to 10p.m, this is the best time for me to absorb as much as I can and it really works! My friends were wondering why I have such habit. Haha. maybe this is my study skill and study style.

When my lecturer was giving out our test papers, my heart beating so fast as I had been waiting for it since so long. I always wish to stand in the crowd and be the most shining among the others. And this is the most suitable time to prove it. When my lecturer called out my name, I was like: OMG, my turn…….how if I fail my paper? I started to get nervous. Luckily, when the paper passed into my hand, I was like wanna screamed out: Yes, I did it! God blessed….

At the moment, I found no words to describe my feelings. I don't know how to explain and express my feelings at the moment. I always remind myself, the further I go, the brighter I was. I was treated FR chocolate from my lecturer as a reward. I deserve it. My family was my strongest support, especially my dad. He always consoles me and gave full encouragement on my academic. I had done it well not only for myself, and also my parents. Now every single cent that I’m using was from my parents.

I knew that is not an easy task for both of them to bare 3 of us which as I still didn’t have any economy’s background. I told myself I’ve to study hard so that next year I can apply for scholarships and continue in my degree for free. I won’t disappoint my lecturer, parents and the most important is myself.



I love parents and family so much


Well, my final is around the corner, so what I have to do is score as high as possible. That’s all! No more holiday mood. No more facebook after this and get myself in stress. Keep far away from doing useless thing and pay attention to the maximum during lecture.
Perhaps there are a lot of things that happened in the past, but still, we need to back to the reality, back to our own life.

No matter how tough it is, we still need to carry on. For every day that is sunshine, yet there will be a day of rain. Just like us as a mortal, sometimes we make mistakes and inadvertently hurt people that care us, especially family. Yet, we got no intention to do so on those people. I knew some mistakes will leave a deep wound, and it takes time to heal the wound. Depends on how deep the wound was. Yet, every mortal deserved a chance to turn over a new leaf.

“Everyone deserves a second chance. In condition they realize what they are doing.”

Feelings....

This time i'm not going to post about my college life as I'm pretty sure that most of you are not interest with reading the same thing all the time. I wish i can post a blog that relate to my relationship but i was thinking, should I?After fews minutes struggling and I decided to post it. Despite it's not suppose to be, but i don't care anymore., just do what i want to do.



Its had been 5 months plus, coming to 6 months. I realize how much I love him and need him. This love make me crazy at the same times worrying stuff that I don't have to worry about. Simply say that, I had dropped into the deep river that nobody can pull me up even myself. I never serious with the relationship that I had gone through before, totally never!! Yet, this time i totally lose to myself, I admit it and got nothing to say.



This relatioship drive me crazy and silly. Normally a person will change their characteristics because their loves ones, it's a good sign. I mean change from unperfectly to perfect, not 100% yet 200 %. Someone may said love is blind but I personally don't agree with this phrase. For me, love is eternal and regardless to one's fault. I'm so glad that we are together now to share everything and my life with him.


Things he always said it to me make me feel complete. He always warm up my heart when I felt uncomplete. Sometimes what he did and what he said make me feel so loved. He's my passion for my life. It's important to me that he knows how much I love him. I'm thankful for his forgiveness and fulfillness all the time. I know i shoudn't be greedy that want him to be with me for his whole life, atleast we're still breathing, we should appreciate what we have at the moment.


He was like my soul, he knows what i'm thinking all the time. I'm so curios how he did that, maybe it was the things that normally people mentioned,"use the heart to feel and love someone". He never lie me before, what he can't promise me he just said can't. He didn't 'open the blank cheques'. Seriously, he change me alot, i admit this, even my friends said so. He totally change me into another person but in good ways actually. He makes me more independent and don't speculate things with our first view.


I know him well, he prefers his girl to be independent, caring, always talk something usefull and meaningful. He treat everything serious especially our relationship. Sometimes i just purposely make him mad and angry just wanna caught his attention on me. Just because I love him so much. But after that i felt sorry to hurt him. This loves drive me nuts. I told him before, don't tell me you love me unless you mean it, because i might do something crazy like believe it. Haha, but at the moment i haven't reach that state yet.


Sometimes he just told me don't compare him with someone or so on so thing. But it's true!!He is totally himself and not someone. The phrase that i always said, 'you might hold my hand for a while but you hold my heart forever.' No matter what happend, i hope i'll always be there for him even for a second, it's worthwile, it's satisfied. There is very blissfulness that we can share everything even though it is not a big matter. And i hope it make sense.

At this moment, i know I should not think all those useless things that not relate with my studies but just kindly allow me do once so that my heart will feel more comfortable after i spread out my feelings. I dont know what the expression once he saw this post, maybe speechless, angry or anything else la. Haha,i dont care. Sometimes he really make me breathless as i couldn't stand for it, seriously. Mybe this is the power of love.


I just hope can be with him forever and ever. I'm sure both of us are able to manage the tough that we face now and in future at the same time work hard to maintain our relationship. I heart him no matter what and i hope 'YOU' too. <3 u.(our sign)

Random post....

It had been long time didn't update my blog.

As you guys noticed that I had started my U,so I got no time to blog.(actually is very lazy).

Since today my mood is very good,you guys will be benefit.haha.

I had been three weeks in IUCN,adapted with the enviroment and hostel.

I quiet satisfied as how much i paid for it.Let's take a look at my hostel and the facilities.

My bedroom with two beds.

This is the master bedroom

Bathroon that inside the master bedroom..big right?

The living room..gt television somemore...

dining area...

view that capture from my hostel..there is a swimming pool..

haha,normally alot of free 'show' over here...kissing scene..haha..romantic kan?

The 1st meal that i cooked..look delicous right?but really taste good...haha..



this is what we do when the lecturer is not around..

take 2...



bertaubat?



aduh!!zong sai meh..haha..




my housemate..vry close to her..she's a sarawakian...

Conclusion,this is how my day run everyday...
Boring but meaningful.

My new shoes..adidas-3:COMP W

like the design very much..





Silver colour..it's nice?haha..i like it.

Just wanna do some advertisment,now everywhere are having sales.
It's worth to buy,my shoes just cost Rm 209 after 30% discount.Normal price is RM 299.90.
Worth right?haha..go and get it now...especially New Balance..

field trip and waterplay..

As the holiday is around the corner,my kindergarden job was very relax and had fun within this week .The management had organized a field trip -fire station for the children and also the waterplay which is the children are most looking forward to.Monday they had went to the fire station,I felt that they shouldn't bring them to there because is quiet dangerous somemore is not suitable for them.The knowledge about avoiding of fire that the fireman told us i think just for the teachers only,I mean the teachers are listening to.Do you think the 3 and 4 years old children knew what is the fireman talking about?Somemore he's using bahasa,but nowadays the chilldren are provided english language teaching,luckily we brought a translator. After the children had sat there for 15 minutes,they started lost their patience,all started at sixes and sevens.After that,the fireman brought us visit the places where the staff work and the fire-fighting equipment,all the children are very interesting with it.

Here is some picture,

nickson..where u looking at?

The four years children are sitting at the 'fire' motorcycle

The children are looking at the fire-fighting car..

This is the bus which we taken back to the kindergarden.Can you imagine the whole school of children,129 of them,get into 'a' bus?powerful right?y not?two seated for four people,the children are very tiny wad...such a 'rich' school....

After 10 minutes of the journey,most of them fall asleept,i think too tired dy.This is what we call the kindergarden field trip.

Will Post about the waterplay on next day.

你。。。

近来很懒惰写部落格，


也不知为何会变得那么没精神。

工作太累？还是其他原因呢？

哈哈。。自己知道自己事啦。。


上星期是教师节，

我相信有些人一定会认为，教师节而已嘛。。

没有什么大不了。

以前的我，就是这么认为。

教师节没有拿香蕉丢那些老师都算好咯，

还要送礼物。哈哈。。无可否认我以前是个坏学生。

我自己也这么认为。


直到2009年4月19日，

自己就成为了一位同学一毕业就被遗忘的教师。

事实证明我是错的，

当教师节的那一天到来时，

我收的礼物有比其他的老师多。



让我无法忘记的是，

当我一进到学校，

有几位天真可爱的小朋友跑向前来抱着我,

他们说了一句:Happy Teacher's Day,I love You

当时的场面真的很温馨，

没想到自己没被遗忘到。(当然啦，看我是谁。。哈哈..)


这就是他们送我的礼物：





Best Teacher?haha..(i always scold them,they still give me a best teacher)






玫瑰花






在学校庆祝完之后，

当然，我们的management也不忘了我们的功劳，

所以他们就在风景优美的马来式餐厅-Restoran Cerana举办了一个小型的教师节晚宴。

其实也没有很小，总共有十一桌的老师，而且有些不能出席，

所以还蛮多人的。


一去到，看到的全都是上了三十岁的老师，

好像只有我一个是不超过二十岁的，所以有点尴尬。

那里有驻唱歌手，他们两个真的一级棒-美，

声音还不错啦。。不过大多数都是马来歌啦。




AYU OIAM &SARAH MYSTARZLG





the view




丰富的一餐





享受了美味的晚餐之后，

就开始玩游戏了。

首先是抽奖，每一位老师都有机会抽，

而我就抽到一把雨伞。(对我来讲还蛮好用的）


抽奖完毕后，就开始娱乐了。

别看小那些‘老老师’，他们都很sporting叻。。

敢敢上台跳舞，走猫步，

看到都傻眼，搞笑到不行。

all the dancing king and queen..

跳完舞过后，就有一个服装表演比赛。

那些老师一直拉我出去，很羞叻。。尴尬到不行。（我真的接受不到咯）

比赛完毕后，就根其他老师交流一下，然后这个晚宴就这样结束了。

我很希望明年还有这个机会，可是我知道不可能，

突然有一种舍不得离开的感觉，舍不得那些小朋友，

毕竟都有感情了。

-珍惜现在拥有的一切-

Tan mami,we love you.....

Haha..today i'm gonna try to blog in english
i know my english is very sucks..
but just try la..
ps://pls ignore if anyone is not interested and don't critic about it..


since tomorrow is mother's day
i'm sure everyone is busying with their mother's day present
but for me..
i'm not buying anything for my mum as my mum doesn't like those non-practical things


as long as our whole family get together and don't make her angry..
for her,that's enough..
Tan mami..even though four of us always lawan cakap when u scold us
and said something make you sad..but we do love u very much.
Remember last year i had done something that made your tears drop..
And you didn't talk to me for two weeks


I felt sorry to you
And don't even had a guts to apologize
I know i'm a bad daughter..
And you're a best mami ever..
everything you had done for four of us is just for our own good..
but we don't even say thank you..


so today i wanna take this opportunity to spill out all those nauseating phrase..
haha..cold..
Tan mami,we do love u..pls forgive what we had done that hurting u..
i swear i'll change my attitude,nt 100% that good,but will give out 100% effort
i'll prove to you..






Tan mami,thanks for everything you had done for me..
especially take good care to me when i'm sick.
What i'm really appreciate is every time cook the dishes that i like to eat..
when i tell u i wanna eat then the next day for sure u'll cook it..
even though i'm very touching but i didn't tell out cz u know la..very fish de ma..haha..

Mami,I notice that your white hair had grow many..
you and papa get older and older..
when i saw it my heard sure will heartache..
imagine that both of you will leave us one day..
we're not willing..
both of u work hard to earn money...
give us what we request.


Once again,thanks happy mother's day..
I LOVE YOU,TAN MAMI

my lovely mum and her daughter

一场大战。。BOOM,BOOM!!!!

这几天像做了一场梦
过得非常快
可能是我病到“云驼驼”
不知时日过


好吧。。
就从幼稚园说起
我 酱“大个女”从来没有想过会在幼稚园教书
想起都有点不可思议
朋友们听到都吓到
“你可以吗？你不是不喜欢小孩的吗？你最好不要给他 们耳光哦。。”
哈哈。。连我自己也不相信自己
不过对我来讲也是一个好的经验


跟我熟悉的人都知道我对小孩很反感
就 算有多可爱都好
都没有特别的喜欢
只是没有残忍到在他们哭时给他们耳光

可是当我在里面做了三天之后
才知道原来他们 没有我想象中的难搞
而且每天早上听到他们说：“good morning miss Lau”
都有一种说不出的喜悦
而且还有学生 告诉我，miss lau,i love you


可以想象他们真得很可爱
很单纯，
所以我开始对他们改观了
每 天跟她们一起唱歌
连吃午餐之前都要唱歌的喔。。


哈哈。。
我来唱一段啦。。
比如今天吃donuts
然 后他们就会唱
“DONUT,DONUT 营养好，吃得饱有张得高，大家一起坐下来，大家一起吃DONUT,
thank you kakak,terina kasih kakak,谢谢kakak... ”
哈哈。。英文版和马来版的我忘了。。


暂时 就那么多
我相信接下来的日子会有更多有趣的事发生
期待。。


所完幼稚园的故事
就来说说跟姐妹们去云顶的事 吧。。
说真，这一次真的旅程真得很难忘
怎么说呢？
有开心也有不开心




group pic..




my sweeties:rianie and see yue




sweetie sammy





the sweet couple:dorris and mj


开心的是当然可以和他们聚在一起
虽然clover当天没有跟我 们上来
可是到最后她还是上来了
而且还要谢谢小白


那天还没有去之前已经感觉很不舒服了
很想临时退缩,回家 啦。
那时候还在kl centre，要回是可以的
可是我不想酱扫兴
难得全部都可以一起出来


所以还是打消 了这个念头
撑到底。。死就死啦。。
哈哈。。结果真的撑不住。。
去到哪儿，他们就进theme park玩咯。。
我叻？吃 了四粒panadol,然后一个人坐在对面的old town喝茶
感觉还不错。。幸好还有的上网。。
总共叫了两杯水，一开始是叫白咖啡和 面包
过后再叫多一杯honey lemon,可是不要lemon,哈哈。。


在那边坐了一个小时
然后他们出来了， 因为下雨啊。
所以他们迟点才进回去
过后我们就回房咯。。回到房第一件做的事就是睡觉。
那时候真得很不舒服，开始发烧了
其 实爸爸昨天已经叫我不要去的
可是我没有听他讲，搞到自己酱辛苦
对不起爸爸。。


到了晚上真的顶不顺啊。。
刚 好clover和wai kit有上来
所以可以坐他们的车下回去
本来打算住一晚的
可是我真得不能
所以回之前来长大合照 吧。。




yuri,lam,see yue,sammy,rainie and me





像谁？陈乔恩？哈哈。。自恋。。
样子很“残”叻。。哈哈。。
然后哦。。突然间电话响有人就问我：“你明天要不要跟我一起去DSA exhibition?"
哈哈。。那时候的我真的走路的没有力。


可是还是答应了。。
小白他们上来喝茶然后就在我回去咯。。
回到clover家都已经早上五点了（在他家过夜）
然后一大早八点半就爬起来
clover就去做工，而我就去PWTC


哈哈。。真得很佩服她。。
一杯咖啡就可以搞定了
有人问我，为什么你生病了还好去呢？
你看你的样子真得很累！！
我就回答他，“你不明白的啦。。。”


所以那天就跟“他“搭LRT去PWTC咯。。
其实我也没有去过，所以就去啦。
去见识见识嘛。。
而且要穿FORMAL叻。。不是随便“苍蝇蟑螂”都可以进的
可是我有这个大好机会。。
所以还是要说声谢谢你。。让我认识了很多不同的东西。。



每一次都很特别。。虽然我那天状态不佳。。
可是还是愿意的陪你一起走完所有的路程。
而你也很愿意的照顾我。。
哈哈..我还记得你告诉过我，“爱情要有牺牲才会完整”
对，我相信我们会做到的。。


咳，别说那么多
看看照片。。




juan wyn and me...too small dy..yeng bo?haha..












里面的东西全部都是真的叻。。
握真枪的手感真的不一样
虽然有点重啦。。
对我来讲真的是一个很难得的机会。。
让我大开眼界。。


然后我回到家，第一件事就是
“爸爸，我生病了”发高烧，
然后爸爸就立刻带我去看医生，医生说为什么酱迟才来。。
已经烧到43度了。。哈哈。。
我告诉他：“没有时间"
其实真得很谢谢我爸爸。。让我很感动。。
虽然有时不听你的话，会跟你吵架，可是这就是我们沟通的方式。。
在这里说声，爸，谢谢你，I LOVE YOU......





这是什么？当然药咯。。不然糖果咩？
吃就吃咯。。谁怕谁？？哈哈。。
祝我快点好起来吧。。很想吃羊扒。。

Recently...

说真，近来真的很懒
什么都不想做
连写blog也不想
可是有时真的闷到去找东西来做
不然就是出街咯。。


哈哈，出街除了看戏吃东西
唱k聊天，我看也没有什么好做了
如果说逛街，我真的很闷了
可是每次我都很享受出去的路程和节目


虽然是做同样的东西
可是感觉很不同
当然也要看对象是谁啦。。
每次都很期待跟他的约会


总是让人觉得很有新鲜感
会去一些我从来没去过的地方
走几段从来没走过的路线
搭一些从来不搭的车
就是寻找这种感觉


虽然路途遥远
在大日天下走得汗流浃背
在下雨天淋得全身湿透
可是对我来说这些问题都不是问题


走了好久,从成功广场走到去双峰塔
去看F1 STREET DEMO
而且Michael Schumacher也有来
当然去凑热闹啦。。
观众也不是说很多，还好。。
可是天气不是很好




有没有看到那些在上面做工的人？哈哈




我们的Michael Schumacher，赛车手。。





一个多好的赛车手都需要一辆好的跑车，
当然也少不了这一组“换轮胎的人”。。哈哈。。
够厉害。。只需六秒。。



在下雨天看这场表演真地格外有气氛
会记得这一天。。。


昨天也去看了一部电影 "CLASF OF THE TITANS"
第一次去IMAX看，里面真的很大，不像普通戏院
里面是curve形的，而且银幕真的有够大
哈哈。进到去。。才15个人罢了。。
感觉还满空的。。


这部戏真的很好看，超喜欢里面的男主角-sam worthington
他演Avarta也是超好看。。很帅。。哈哈。。
这部戏可以用一个字形容-赞
就很喜欢看这种奇奇怪怪的怪物
还有一些打打杀杀的场面
够刺激，而且也蛮感动的
所以就给这部戏四颗星啦。。


看完后还想再看下一场
可是没有时间了
而且IMAX一天直播一部戏罢了。。
然后就带一个丁加奴的朋友去klcc


人家酱难得才下来
当然要带他到处走走啦。。
哈哈。。又当导游了





哈哈。。





这就是我们。。
难得的一天


嗯..
跟 sweetie clover的合照




真的很久都没有见到她了
今天跟她一起去她做工的店-MESSAGE
一开了门就发生一些事情
乍到。。店竟然跳电。。
吓到咯。。一下子黑了
又听到很大声*pop*的声音


吓到我们两个
以为什么东西爆炸。。
哈哈。。叫人来弄好了又在跳
跳了几轮。。幸好没有吓到她同事的baby


在她店坐了很久
等那位megan gaga
他们去唱k。。他们有叫我去的。。
可是约了人，所以就下次吧。。


clover,你快点去gao dim你跟他的东西
最好是拿得回xxxxx（我们两个懂罢了）。。哈哈。。
明白吗？。。等你一起去云顶玩
不管用什么方法，你一定要拿回
戏演好一点。。哈哈。。
努力争取。。等你好消息


还有，kelly clarkson来马开唱
25th of April,held at naitonal stadium,bukit jalil



谁有去看的？megan?see yue?clover?
很想去看叻。。谁可以陪我去看？