Dream, Realize and Wake Up

It’s time to get back into my hectic life after Hari Raya Holiday. I’m back to my college. I am pretty sure everyone felt very lazy after 2 weeks of holiday, but in my case just one week. I got no problem with that as long as there is a holiday for me so that I can recharge my battery for further usage.

First of all, I would like to share my happiness with all of you, especially my family. I’m very satisfied and happy with my Test 2 marks as I almost get the highest marks in all the subjects. These results came not because of praying hard before the exam yet I do really put a lot of effort in it.

Even the non-important subject, Study Skill, I can score the highest mark on it which is 78.5/80. I used to study at night. Within 8 to 10p.m, this is the best time for me to absorb as much as I can and it really works! My friends were wondering why I have such habit. Haha. maybe this is my study skill and study style.

When my lecturer was giving out our test papers, my heart beating so fast as I had been waiting for it since so long. I always wish to stand in the crowd and be the most shining among the others. And this is the most suitable time to prove it. When my lecturer called out my name, I was like: OMG, my turn…….how if I fail my paper? I started to get nervous. Luckily, when the paper passed into my hand, I was like wanna screamed out: Yes, I did it! God blessed….

At the moment, I found no words to describe my feelings. I don't know how to explain and express my feelings at the moment. I always remind myself, the further I go, the brighter I was. I was treated FR chocolate from my lecturer as a reward. I deserve it. My family was my strongest support, especially my dad. He always consoles me and gave full encouragement on my academic. I had done it well not only for myself, and also my parents. Now every single cent that I’m using was from my parents.

I knew that is not an easy task for both of them to bare 3 of us which as I still didn’t have any economy’s background. I told myself I’ve to study hard so that next year I can apply for scholarships and continue in my degree for free. I won’t disappoint my lecturer, parents and the most important is myself.



I love parents and family so much


Well, my final is around the corner, so what I have to do is score as high as possible. That’s all! No more holiday mood. No more facebook after this and get myself in stress. Keep far away from doing useless thing and pay attention to the maximum during lecture.
Perhaps there are a lot of things that happened in the past, but still, we need to back to the reality, back to our own life.

No matter how tough it is, we still need to carry on. For every day that is sunshine, yet there will be a day of rain. Just like us as a mortal, sometimes we make mistakes and inadvertently hurt people that care us, especially family. Yet, we got no intention to do so on those people. I knew some mistakes will leave a deep wound, and it takes time to heal the wound. Depends on how deep the wound was. Yet, every mortal deserved a chance to turn over a new leaf.

“Everyone deserves a second chance. In condition they realize what they are doing.”

Feelings....

This time i'm not going to post about my college life as I'm pretty sure that most of you are not interest with reading the same thing all the time. I wish i can post a blog that relate to my relationship but i was thinking, should I?After fews minutes struggling and I decided to post it. Despite it's not suppose to be, but i don't care anymore., just do what i want to do.



Its had been 5 months plus, coming to 6 months. I realize how much I love him and need him. This love make me crazy at the same times worrying stuff that I don't have to worry about. Simply say that, I had dropped into the deep river that nobody can pull me up even myself. I never serious with the relationship that I had gone through before, totally never!! Yet, this time i totally lose to myself, I admit it and got nothing to say.



This relatioship drive me crazy and silly. Normally a person will change their characteristics because their loves ones, it's a good sign. I mean change from unperfectly to perfect, not 100% yet 200 %. Someone may said love is blind but I personally don't agree with this phrase. For me, love is eternal and regardless to one's fault. I'm so glad that we are together now to share everything and my life with him.


Things he always said it to me make me feel complete. He always warm up my heart when I felt uncomplete. Sometimes what he did and what he said make me feel so loved. He's my passion for my life. It's important to me that he knows how much I love him. I'm thankful for his forgiveness and fulfillness all the time. I know i shoudn't be greedy that want him to be with me for his whole life, atleast we're still breathing, we should appreciate what we have at the moment.


He was like my soul, he knows what i'm thinking all the time. I'm so curios how he did that, maybe it was the things that normally people mentioned,"use the heart to feel and love someone". He never lie me before, what he can't promise me he just said can't. He didn't 'open the blank cheques'. Seriously, he change me alot, i admit this, even my friends said so. He totally change me into another person but in good ways actually. He makes me more independent and don't speculate things with our first view.


I know him well, he prefers his girl to be independent, caring, always talk something usefull and meaningful. He treat everything serious especially our relationship. Sometimes i just purposely make him mad and angry just wanna caught his attention on me. Just because I love him so much. But after that i felt sorry to hurt him. This loves drive me nuts. I told him before, don't tell me you love me unless you mean it, because i might do something crazy like believe it. Haha, but at the moment i haven't reach that state yet.


Sometimes he just told me don't compare him with someone or so on so thing. But it's true!!He is totally himself and not someone. The phrase that i always said, 'you might hold my hand for a while but you hold my heart forever.' No matter what happend, i hope i'll always be there for him even for a second, it's worthwile, it's satisfied. There is very blissfulness that we can share everything even though it is not a big matter. And i hope it make sense.

At this moment, i know I should not think all those useless things that not relate with my studies but just kindly allow me do once so that my heart will feel more comfortable after i spread out my feelings. I dont know what the expression once he saw this post, maybe speechless, angry or anything else la. Haha,i dont care. Sometimes he really make me breathless as i couldn't stand for it, seriously. Mybe this is the power of love.


I just hope can be with him forever and ever. I'm sure both of us are able to manage the tough that we face now and in future at the same time work hard to maintain our relationship. I heart him no matter what and i hope 'YOU' too. <3 u.(our sign)

Random post....

It had been long time didn't update my blog.

As you guys noticed that I had started my U,so I got no time to blog.(actually is very lazy).

Since today my mood is very good,you guys will be benefit.haha.

I had been three weeks in IUCN,adapted with the enviroment and hostel.

I quiet satisfied as how much i paid for it.Let's take a look at my hostel and the facilities.

My bedroom with two beds.

This is the master bedroom

Bathroon that inside the master bedroom..big right?

The living room..gt television somemore...

dining area...

view that capture from my hostel..there is a swimming pool..

haha,normally alot of free 'show' over here...kissing scene..haha..romantic kan?

The 1st meal that i cooked..look delicous right?but really taste good...haha..



this is what we do when the lecturer is not around..

take 2...



bertaubat?



aduh!!zong sai meh..haha..




my housemate..vry close to her..she's a sarawakian...

Conclusion,this is how my day run everyday...
Boring but meaningful.

My new shoes..adidas-3:COMP W

like the design very much..





Silver colour..it's nice?haha..i like it.

Just wanna do some advertisment,now everywhere are having sales.
It's worth to buy,my shoes just cost Rm 209 after 30% discount.Normal price is RM 299.90.
Worth right?haha..go and get it now...especially New Balance..

field trip and waterplay..

As the holiday is around the corner,my kindergarden job was very relax and had fun within this week .The management had organized a field trip -fire station for the children and also the waterplay which is the children are most looking forward to.Monday they had went to the fire station,I felt that they shouldn't bring them to there because is quiet dangerous somemore is not suitable for them.The knowledge about avoiding of fire that the fireman told us i think just for the teachers only,I mean the teachers are listening to.Do you think the 3 and 4 years old children knew what is the fireman talking about?Somemore he's using bahasa,but nowadays the chilldren are provided english language teaching,luckily we brought a translator. After the children had sat there for 15 minutes,they started lost their patience,all started at sixes and sevens.After that,the fireman brought us visit the places where the staff work and the fire-fighting equipment,all the children are very interesting with it.

Here is some picture,

nickson..where u looking at?

The four years children are sitting at the 'fire' motorcycle

The children are looking at the fire-fighting car..

This is the bus which we taken back to the kindergarden.Can you imagine the whole school of children,129 of them,get into 'a' bus?powerful right?y not?two seated for four people,the children are very tiny wad...such a 'rich' school....

After 10 minutes of the journey,most of them fall asleept,i think too tired dy.This is what we call the kindergarden field trip.

Will Post about the waterplay on next day.

你。。。

近来很懒惰写部落格，


也不知为何会变得那么没精神。

工作太累？还是其他原因呢？

哈哈。。自己知道自己事啦。。


上星期是教师节，

我相信有些人一定会认为，教师节而已嘛。。

没有什么大不了。

以前的我，就是这么认为。

教师节没有拿香蕉丢那些老师都算好咯，

还要送礼物。哈哈。。无可否认我以前是个坏学生。

我自己也这么认为。


直到2009年4月19日，

自己就成为了一位同学一毕业就被遗忘的教师。

事实证明我是错的，

当教师节的那一天到来时，

我收的礼物有比其他的老师多。



让我无法忘记的是，

当我一进到学校，

有几位天真可爱的小朋友跑向前来抱着我,

他们说了一句:Happy Teacher's Day,I love You

当时的场面真的很温馨，

没想到自己没被遗忘到。(当然啦，看我是谁。。哈哈..)


这就是他们送我的礼物：





Best Teacher?haha..(i always scold them,they still give me a best teacher)






玫瑰花






在学校庆祝完之后，

当然，我们的management也不忘了我们的功劳，

所以他们就在风景优美的马来式餐厅-Restoran Cerana举办了一个小型的教师节晚宴。

其实也没有很小，总共有十一桌的老师，而且有些不能出席，

所以还蛮多人的。


一去到，看到的全都是上了三十岁的老师，

好像只有我一个是不超过二十岁的，所以有点尴尬。

那里有驻唱歌手，他们两个真的一级棒-美，

声音还不错啦。。不过大多数都是马来歌啦。




AYU OIAM &SARAH MYSTARZLG





the view




丰富的一餐





享受了美味的晚餐之后，

就开始玩游戏了。

首先是抽奖，每一位老师都有机会抽，

而我就抽到一把雨伞。(对我来讲还蛮好用的）


抽奖完毕后，就开始娱乐了。

别看小那些‘老老师’，他们都很sporting叻。。

敢敢上台跳舞，走猫步，

看到都傻眼，搞笑到不行。

all the dancing king and queen..

跳完舞过后，就有一个服装表演比赛。

那些老师一直拉我出去，很羞叻。。尴尬到不行。（我真的接受不到咯）

比赛完毕后，就根其他老师交流一下，然后这个晚宴就这样结束了。

我很希望明年还有这个机会，可是我知道不可能，

突然有一种舍不得离开的感觉，舍不得那些小朋友，

毕竟都有感情了。

-珍惜现在拥有的一切-

Tan mami,we love you.....

Haha..today i'm gonna try to blog in english
i know my english is very sucks..
but just try la..
ps://pls ignore if anyone is not interested and don't critic about it..


since tomorrow is mother's day
i'm sure everyone is busying with their mother's day present
but for me..
i'm not buying anything for my mum as my mum doesn't like those non-practical things


as long as our whole family get together and don't make her angry..
for her,that's enough..
Tan mami..even though four of us always lawan cakap when u scold us
and said something make you sad..but we do love u very much.
Remember last year i had done something that made your tears drop..
And you didn't talk to me for two weeks


I felt sorry to you
And don't even had a guts to apologize
I know i'm a bad daughter..
And you're a best mami ever..
everything you had done for four of us is just for our own good..
but we don't even say thank you..


so today i wanna take this opportunity to spill out all those nauseating phrase..
haha..cold..
Tan mami,we do love u..pls forgive what we had done that hurting u..
i swear i'll change my attitude,nt 100% that good,but will give out 100% effort
i'll prove to you..






Tan mami,thanks for everything you had done for me..
especially take good care to me when i'm sick.
What i'm really appreciate is every time cook the dishes that i like to eat..
when i tell u i wanna eat then the next day for sure u'll cook it..
even though i'm very touching but i didn't tell out cz u know la..very fish de ma..haha..

Mami,I notice that your white hair had grow many..
you and papa get older and older..
when i saw it my heard sure will heartache..
imagine that both of you will leave us one day..
we're not willing..
both of u work hard to earn money...
give us what we request.


Once again,thanks happy mother's day..
I LOVE YOU,TAN MAMI

my lovely mum and her daughter